HAHA!!! okie have not been blogging cos my hse has not had internet connection since 2.5 weeks ago... den y am i able to blog dis entry? cos i'm in sch!

just got back from camp last week... hrm... currently recouperating on sleep and battling my relapse of asthma. just seen the doctor... seems my breathing level is below average... -_- haiz. back on regular medication... =/ but i'd b fine... just dat lesser outings for me...

aaron just left for NZ last fri... wah seh i was so scared i would have missed him when i called him on that morning... but luckily his flight was at night! so at least got to say good bye... tonight renyu's leaving as well... can't go airport to see him off cos i'm just feeling so terrible... but guess i will call him later to wish him a safe trip... eric's leaving on the 12. actually last sunday i was supposed to meet him for a while but end up timings clashed... hrm... might not be able to meet him one last time but den guess i'd give him a call if that situation arises... i must say, i think i'm almost over that whole ordeal already. i'm not so mad anymore. even if i do get pissed off, i just decide to cool down 1st before just snapping at him over sms. guess he's still some1 which i've oways liked the most but is the most unsuitable one for me.

well, so did i meet any1 interesting in the camp? yeah i guess so. really blows me away. but den again, haha i just feel that i am not ready for anything yet. just want to chill and earn as much money as possible! wahaha i have so many big plans for this money...

k la, more parties to go to and more resting time needed. please pray for my recovery  

2 surprises on e mrt today!

1) met sand + water ( == qUiCkSaNd) ppl on e mrt. they were on their way after dinner to some chillout place at raffles place. they almost dragged me along but thank god... no 1 can do dat to me! wahha!!!

2) saw the 'JS' (y i put the inverted commas is cos i presume he is from JS) major guy who usually takes the same bus as me on mondays last sem. but he looks different n better, more tanned and fitter, albeit in a totally different hair colour (from red to brown + blond streaks). i recognised his hair 1st cos the styling was the same, den slowly i noticed dat he was reading a japanese comic den lastly cos his whole side profile is so familiar. he actually has a very hot side profile but doesn't look as nice when u c him up front. and den lastly he transferred to the north south line which i totally expected cos he takes 180.

btw 'Crying out love in the centre of the world' seriously is a very big disappointment. felt absolutely ripped off. haha k i'm seriously demeaning the movie...

k my mind's kind of shut off from all the hip hop dat 98.7fm is playing now... tata!

btw i'm not calling eric. he just proved himself unworthy of my attention anymore. even as a 'friend'. 

sometimes i seriously wish i had a bf.

i'm starting to lose count of who i'm supposed to meet dis week! for comp club work, e guys i'm supposed to meet, the guy i wanna meet, the ktv i'm going! n work is starting tmr! v excited but oso v frantic... haiz. i dun even noe when i end work! :S dis is so scary. when i dun have the time, i have so many appointments; when i'm free like hell, nobody bothers me.

and i am so stressed bout so many things! esp comp club stuffs! i'm like so lagging behind so many uncleared stuff... ARGHZ!!! *crys!* going to step down soon but still got all dis stuff... i seriously need to do some studying during the last week of hols, prepare for 3214...

haha since i've got so much in my hands right now, i conclude i shdn't get anymore dirt in them by wishing i had a bf! wahha!!! 

yeah so far e start of the week has been great!

work was quite enjoyable today and i made some frens as well!!! there were altogether 5 of us in the training and they were all so pretty! haha. n seriously dun look their age. i'm sort of like in the middle of the bunch in terms of age grp. and our trainer seems quite nice too. all in all i see us all being a tight knitted family over at biotherm! haha however, during 1 pt in time in the afternoon i was seriously stoning out. until our trainer, cheryl, called me and i got out of my trance... haha die... junxiang was saying scully i kena black listed. well... heck ah! heehee. i'm quite excited bout the job n guys pls stop asking me for samples. doubt i'd b able to get unless it's for new products

so wad else is going right for me?

1stly the training will b only 3 days instead of the intended 4. so i'd have 1 more day to spare! haha so happy. totally solved my problems. landed myself a date with the guy dat i wanna meet so exciting! haha going max brenner and he says he likes choc as well! haha i'm seriously just mad. anyhow it's just a crush la scully after 1st outing i dun ever wanna go out with him anymore! =X wahaha!!! but den again i shall enjoy it while dis feeling lasts!

oh and fri i'd b clearing up the 'mess' (i'm just paranoid la) over at comp club! plus i am going ktv on fri as well!!! =D so exciting!

yay! dis week is working out! =) 

PS! harry potter and the half blood prince is SO ADDICTIVE!!! WAHAHA think i shall limit myself to a few chapters per day only... dun wanna get a headache from reading too much. ^_^ 

finally learnt how to put on makeup properly... i think e intense dark green really looks nice as an eye shadow and my lashes really looked the longest i have ever seen! haha so fun

was nice talking to him as well... even tho max brenner was seriously too sweet for my liking... think i shall skip it forever... (mayb russ was right, i actually dun really have a good impression of the place. haha probably subconsciously.) anw back to the date. it was rather nice tho some parts really made me feel slightly uncomfortable. it's my paranoid self on the overdrive again... =/ guess everytime when some1 seems to get close to me, i just wanna shut him out. the defense mechanism in me. i actually realise he's quite eligible. somehow a little surprised tho i never find it totally unexpectable. guess the scars from previous r/s never fail to make me more n more paranoid... *contemplative*

suddenly there came some1 (lets call him L) who seems interested in me...

no wonder all along i felt there was some sort of vibe from him... i feel ok towards dis guy... some1 i can some sort of talk to as well... but then again... i wish i can meet J (my crush) more often then i can confirm whether it's going anywhere... aiyoh...

actually my job's been quite ok... frantic at times... but at least it's something new and fun for me... the only bad pts are, the white uniform dat gets dirty easily; my horrible shoes which make me got so many blisters; the crazy qns dat customers can ask me about products... aiyoh

btw finished harry potter sometime last week... it's great!

anw i'm damn tired. cya  

i seriously dunnoe y... today dis other guy, R, some sort pulled the same stunt as L. most of you shd have known about what L did which totally like turned me off... okie actually dats v harsh. more of like made me v stressed...

kk back to R. he got me smtg today while we were out and gave to me when he drove me home. i obviously did not accept it. even tho it was smtg i would have wanted to have but den again it's not a necessity... i guess i would have accepted it on normal circumstances. but after what J did, i was totally just instantly turned off when guys decide to give me 'gifts'. if it were my bf showering me with gifts i'd b damn happy. but if it's guys who are not my bf who do this, i'd b just quite turned off... cos i just feel it's a way that they can buy guilt out of me if i reject them when they ask me out the next time or wadever. it just... makes the whole situation v stressful/complicated. i feel i'm obliged to 'repay' them for their 'gift'. :S i guess cos their 'gift' can be counted in monetary terms. it's like you actually noe how much money he spent on it. however, if some1 did/made smtg for me (a gd example is wad most of you would have known that the bastard eric did for me when he was chasing after me), which cannot be counted in monetary terms, and the effort, towards making/preparing the thing, totally outweighs the cost of it, then it'd totally bring out a positive effect towards me...

as wad jx said, guys these days got no tactic 1... wahhaha