haha i am really very happy now...

but anw the past day has been a mad mess. packed my luggages like a gazillion times. and i really dunnoe whether it's enuff...

take care while i'm gone  

ch u changed the schedule for 白色巨塔 and as a result i missed 3 episodes of it

and that is not it.

i feel super lazy right this instant. about everything: fully unpacking my luggages, uploading my photos or at least saving them into GERRNIC, packing my shelf, formatting GERRINIC, replying adp's tag, EVERYTHING!!!

AND!!! all the presents as well giving me so much headache. i hate it when i feel like i missed some1 out and i think i have missed a lot of ppl out. and even tho junhong says people aren't so superficial and won't bother about it but it bothers me a lot!!!

AND AND!!! i am totally ******* some1 now!!! can like kill me anot 

i just wanna go watch 'perhaps love' and 'king kong' but there is no 1 to go with. mayb i shall just go on monday by myself at some ulu cinema like clementi cos at least it'd b cheap.

i just wanna be with the people i love but it just seems to hard! dunnoe where they have disappeared to...  

'elizabethtown' seems like a nice movie... dunnoe whether i should go get free tix for it. but then seriously an Orlando Bloom show always makes me v cautious... haha cos the shows he star in are usually quite sucky roles in some way, except LOTR but then LOTR cannot afford to be sucky since it's a major production.

RULEz
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Rules of the game: 1. post 5 weird/random stuff abt yourself. 2. at the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to do this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules! So here goes:

1. i can move my ears
k not like really move a lot but at least can control a bit. but dun ask me to do it... embarrassing!!! haha

2. i was really arrogant during upper pri or lower sec (if i dun rem wrongly)
haha dis was smtg i realised a little during that time and also i was told by a friend about it. haha i dunnoe why i was likedat but probably cos my maths was really quite good during that time ba

3. i was kind of a daredevil in jc
not exactly performing crazy stunts or what but rather was very daring in asking guys out. even if they reject me i will still ask a second time. haha mad little girl. some of my frens say i oways dare to do things that they wun ever dream of pulling it off...

4. i don't eat cakes with cream on them
yup i'd just totally puke it all out. thats why i super hate it when ppl suggest playing 终极密码 whenever there is unfinished cake left at parties/celebrations. that's just totally sick la.

5. i am hungry most all the time
haha i bet this 1 a lot of ppl noe abt it. get v hungry v fast and v full v fast den back again and i still rem my waistline was only the length of a flexicurve back in sec 2!!! but it has ballooned since then =/

k i think a lot of ppl has done this thing already so have decided not to tag any1

have uploaded my japan photos onto my computer already but really having a puking-blood time uploading them into a photo server... cos they keep telling me connection is broken. n flickr has a limit of 20mb anyhow i am pretty satisfied with my photos. some are damn nice but i just realised i forgot to take the big crab at dotombori!!! grr!!! and i went that place twice =/ boo!!! 

Chemistry's new album, fo(u)r is quite good. i finally can appreciate 'wings of words' and i really like 'nothing' as well. ok 'almost in love' is still like one of their best songs but i've heard it for quite some time. adding the rap part for 'dance with me' makes the whole song damn cool oso!

was in a lot of pain just now. my stomach cramps are really like totally unbearable these days. it's like i can just feel so much pain all day, cold sweating my time away, only waiting for the panadol to kick in. i can't even try to sleep it away cos the pain is really killing me

http://community.webshots.com/user/gerrinic

my results like f*ck! all so much worse den predicted. decrease back to 1 yr ago results!!!

*suicidal* 

i am so excited but frantic/scared at the same time!!! gosh!!!

*digs a hole to bury my face* 

i dunnoe why i cannot type my blog entries from mozilla... this is so weird, it just kinda hangs there when i click on the entry textbox. i'm doing this from IE which just totally feels damn weird.

anyhow! my laptop is cleanly reformatted. haha super power now. fast and can read some files which i previously could not. i guess too much dirt was kept in the laptop for too long. this is the 1st time i've reformatted this laptop. haha such a n00b. yes and this time i have installed all the really fantastic programmes that i got from jon today and i am just damn enjoying having nothing in this laptop. it's like i've decided to burn most of the stuff i backed up from my laptop (a whopping 18gb!). well just those stuff that i wanna keep but wun use often. and after i do that then i'd really fill up this laptop (it has 25+gb of free space now! )

haizz but there is one funny thing going wrong with this laptop. seems like a glich cos it's like sometimes they will say they dun have dis file (with a weird extension) to run a procedure. wonder whether this has anything to do with the inability to update my blog from mozilla... oh well... i'm gonna make it a habit to reformat my laptop mayb once in every 6mths. it's just so damn exciting to install all the new softwares and everything is very fast

by the way i am getting damn excited about tmr! hope i dun forget the time and forget to go. haha so many things to bring somemore for the party my baileys, packet milk, presents, cards. so exciting! and it's like these few days keep getting uber many sms about gatherings after xmas. this is crazy lei! tot after xmas i can rest b4 sch starts but then all the invitations all start coming for things to do b4 sch starts!

ok anw, i think it's going to be very impossible for me to blog about my trip to japan. i guess the photos speak a thousand words. actually there are a lot of things i'd like to blog about, like the things i bought from japan but yar i am just hit very hard by the lazy bug lately. sorry!

i'm typing this entry using basic editor. mozilla is having problems updating using the advanced editor.

Anyhow, I've just watched In The Mood For Love. I guess the most amazing thing about this show is the way it is being filmed. you'd never ever get to see Tong Leung's character's wife and you'd never ever get to see Maggie Cheung's character's husband. it's like whenever they 'appear' in the movie, they are filmed from a gap, some weird angle, filmed facing their backview or when they are inside a room and you are outside the room. you hear them but never get to see their real faces. and there was a scene where there was many use of mirrors. haha and it really looks v confusing truely a very arty film. they oways film the smoke that comes from tony leung's cigarette. and the characters are really weird as well. they like to rehearse out all the senarios, like how his wife and her husband made the first move (his wife and her husband were having an affair), or how it'd be like when she 'confronts' her husband about the affair, or how when they decide to end their own 'affair'. btw maggie cheung really looks great in the many chongsams she wears in the film. makes her look so pretty, tall and slim and i saw the room number, 2046, where they both spent a lot of time together trying to write his martial arts film script.

gonna carry on with 2046...

oh my gawd the show is like freaking draggy? n i was like watching the 2nd part just after my lunch and i really feel v sleepy now! >_< it's a v pseudo futuristic pseudo retro setting... gosh k la i think i go nap a while den get ready to meet the rest! tata!

met up with russ today and ate super a lot.

crystal jade: 牛肉拉面，小笼包，饺子。
gelatissimo: 2 scoops (shared)
secret recepie: oreo milk shake (shared)

total damage: a gazillion calories and freaking full can!

and after he left i went shopping by myself. by the end of the day, i bought:

1) Lee Hom 盖世英雄 预购 cd (wah his 华田错 is damn un-sing-able. 融合了r&b与京剧唱腔。 @ $18.95
2) 2 tees from espirit @ 2 x $29.90
3) 1 pants from ebase @ $17.70 (70% off $69!)
4) 4 bars of soap from the body shop @ 4 x $2.95
5) josh groban concert dvd + cd from hmv @ $13.95 (another steal!)

total damage: $122.20

haha anyhow i was telling my frens i must have been subconsciously very depressed that's why i was undergoing retail therapy...

mayb it was cos of my forget-to-give-me biotherm stuff...

i'm like watching e last episode of last christmas... and even b4 halfway the show i'm already crying like mad already!!!  damn touching! hahha

gosh i actually met Li-Ou at heeren today!!! and i suddenly remember that i'm supposed to meet him up while he's back in singapore!!! ARGH!!! and i forgot about the whole damn thing! and this is the 2nd time!!! and he is like leaving on next tues 6am!!! ARGH!!! had a little chat with him (at the expense of our individual friends waiting for us to finish 'catching up') gosh! i seriously forgotten about the whole thing but i really din mean it. cos he came back on the day i left for japan. and when i got back i totally forgotten about it. :S and i v rarely see him online. furthermore i din have any way to contact him. he still had my number lor... and he actually called me today at heeren cos he kinda spotted me but i did not. and i din ans his phone call oso cos i din hear my hp. luckily i spotted him a little later otherwise just likedat again! haha the last time he got back was oso terrible. i saw him at css during the alumni gathering but i left sch earlier and din get a chance to talk to him -___-

and then when i reached home i suddenly rem i was supposed to meet up with vic oso!!! n i went his blog and found out he was back like quite a while back! I SERIOUSLY HOPE I AM NOT TOO LATE! left a tag on his blog telling him to contact me. haha cos it's like when overseas frens come back there is like no way for me to contact them they aren't usually online and i dun have their temp contact no! so i shall *pray* that vic smses me real soon. cos i have no idea when he is going back!!!

these few days have been a mad rush, meeting up with a gazillion ppl. 4S1, njchoir comm, steamboat @ MR's hse, russ, shiya, and some wahine ppl. gosh seriously i wished i had more time for ppl that come back from overseas. IT'S LIKE I TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT ALL! and it's not that i don't appreciate them but so much have been on my mind ever since i got back from japan and it's really hard to keep track of the things happening ard me oh i hate that. and i've been going to town (and it's the whole stretch: raffles city, suntec, marina sq, ps, orchard) like every single day!!! YUCKS!!! so sick of it all. and transport fees are killing me + eating outside really burns another big hole in my pocket.

I seriously wonder, is this my subconscious way of enjoying to the max just before sch starts? but really, it's tiring me out so much. and i feel like all i do all day is spend money broke broke broke. and it's not going to stop. after new year i've still got gatherings after gatherings!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

ok ok! i've decided that i wanna write one more entry b4 2005 is over!

it's been one hell of a year. fun, enjoyment, pain, stress...

stuff i wanna mention:
1) one year of japanese => jap1: okada, paula, crazy pia-ing for jap spelling. jap2: hard time adapting, no okada , skit, speech preparation!!!
2) american film => i love ryan bishop's lessons!!!
3) 21st bdae => LOVE MY FRENS!!!, baileys + belgium choc ice cream cake!
4) camp photographer => the start of a newfound interest in photography
5) short stint @ Biotherm => learnt how to put on (nearly) full makeup and the challenges of doing sales (and because of that I've also learnt to be nice to sales assistents at shops because i understand the downs of their jobs)
6) 3214 => crazy crapping for documentation, lotsa cutlet, grilled/crispy dory, smallville, lost...
7) new (old) ppl that i got to know (better) => 3214 mates, james, aaron da pro, jon, liz, eng chong, yanru, andre, fid, wenjie, ETC!
8) extraction of wisdom tooth worst time of my life. i rem the extreme tugging, sharp pains, horrible porriage that i have no choice but to eat
9) Last Christmas, The Great White Tower
10) OSAKA! => yeeling, minxian, lim-san, peiyuan, huiyun, zhang da, fengrong! + yukiko & family, hirotomo, ken! craze in photography enhanced, wore full kimono, experienced winter but no snow yet and also what it is like travelling alone with no friends at the start but more than 10 friends at the end!, bought my howl's moving castle manga, bought all of lee hom's jap singles!!! :D
11) found out smtg i've always wondered ever since j2!

lessons i've learnt:
1) when you really dun like someone, there is no pt in trying anymore.
2) there are perks to being a girl! haha

things that i really want to achieve:
1) find out what i want in life: career, r/s, ETC => know myself better
2) appreciate my friends better, esp those overseas. make an effort because if i don't try and be more proactive, i'd kinda regret it when i miss meeting up with them when they come back sg!