seriously, sometimes i just totally don't understand what is there to hao lian about being so freaking attached? so what if you are attached?

"when is it going to be your turn to be attached?!"

"why you look so uncomfortable? scared you cannot find someone to marry ah?!"

wah! I don't think you being attached and me being single gives you the right to hurl such statements at me lor.

as what aaron said, i'm still young and if she break then it will be very funny lor... wahahaha

I seriously think the only drawback of being single is that you don't have someone who will willingly (or try to accomodate) go on holiday with you. cos now i really feel like going on a short holiday (mayb take max 4 days leave + weekend then go overseas) but don't wanna go in a big group, and I really can't find someone to go with me... so yar, that's why I think having a bf is an advantage in that sense? Other than that, I don't see any other benefits at this moment, I don't even feel anymore excitement going out with any guy. There is absolutely no 1 to have a crush on. Call me a total pessimist in relationships, but really, tell me why do I even need to be in a relationship, just like almost everyone else?

ok i know no one wants to go on an overseas holiday with me,

fine

but now no one wants to watch 'the prestige' with me?!

i can just go to hell 

ok I really wanted to blog on tues after watching 'the prestige' but well, never got down to it. Now I shall try to blog about some random stuff.

Why do people not want to keep in contact?

Sometimes I still kind of ponder how come me n and Eric just totally 'lost contact'. Sometimes I wonder how his life is exactly but another part of me just doesn't want to do anything about it. Not that I cannot find ways to get his number, but you know what, seriously it's more of 'what is the point?'. Because I am quite sure that I will not get a response. So seriously, why put myself in that position of thinking whether he will reply me when I know that he will not, or rather, he will just reply (if he does) something that will totally piss me off or make me totally regret ever having the heart to contact him. 2 years (yes it has been that long) down the road and the thought of him still kind of haunts me. If I ever become suay enough to meet him on the street (and I am quite sure that will happen some day given how small Singapore is), I think I will just pretend I did not see him (make a quick look and just turn away).

Why do people spend?

Going through my accounts/expenditure/credit card bills totally just freaks me out. It's like how disgusting looking at the rate of my spending?! Is this how it's supposed to be when one starts earning an income? The urge to just keep spending just keeps coming and coming. Even if I don't have anything to buy, I think I will somehow find something to buy. *SHIT!*

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Anyhow, volunteer work was quite fun on friday. I really like working with 'kids' (secondary school students). And it was also nice to meet other people from the other sectors of the bank. Good 'networking'. And amazingly, I actually got to know of this very young guy from the canadian sch who was also there to help out. And amazingly, he smsed me quite a lot today. Having a slight headache now due to the sudden increase in attention from this one particular person. Must not chat so much else will result in serious overkill.