Sometimes I just don't know what I want. I don't know whether this job is suitable for me or not.

Is this the industry that I want to be in?

Can I just not work?

Ok the 2nd qns is a resounding "NO!" 

aiyo can I just work in a company that has other benefits besides the money? haha that's a bit hard. Not everyone can be in a job that coincides with their passion.

What is my passion?  

Well it used to be a whole lot of things. Music, films, maths... Can't I just have a job which lets me watch movies for a living? haha that would be most ideal... Or can't I just have the incredible talent to be a singer or composer? I bet real talented singers and composers will just shout back at me that it not only takes talent to be successful. They will say that it is luck and also a lot of hard work, not only from yourself but also the people who are working to promote/produce your 'good' music.

Not many people can actually find out their niche and work on it as a career. Oh sharks...

Why can't I get the haircut that suits me?

I went for my free $75 'designer' haircut today. Frankly, the place totally wasn't as posh as I thought and the people are really so damn cold and mechanical there! I wonder how they actually live their lives like that. The haircut wasn't bad but it wasn't impressive as well. I think the hardest kind of hair to cut is that of long hair. Cos there isn't much room for creativity when the hair is long and boring. Maybe I should just give up already and just get a short hairstyle and maybe stick to it? I really don't see anymore point in spending hours doing a dye job so I seriously doubt that I will ever dye my hair again. It's so stinky anyway! So next up, perming? maybe lar. If I ever have long enough hair to do it. I'm seriously so bored of my hair.

Lately, I keep finding out that people have been jio-ing other people for activities (which I would be interested in going) and have kept me totally out of the loop. It's only until I ask them,'hey how about going for ___?' then they will be like,'oh i already arrange (buy tix or whatever) with ___ so (you can't come)...' wah... seriously it's damn saddening la.

1st it was phantom of the opera, now it's a trip to taiwan with the osaka people... haizz... I think this is the 2nd most horrible feeling that one can get next to being lied to... it's like... (ok now I agree with Wanmei about this) if you want to lie to me, be a good liar, don't let me find out and later I get so disappointed that I'm so worthless to you that's why you want to lie to me. It's like... haizz...

Makes me even more resolved to go on holiday by myself. Sorry I do not have any boyfriend that I can rely on to go with me. Let alone any friends that will ever remember to ask me along. It's just what do I mean to any of you?! 

seriously, I don't know what's the problem with some guys. totally irritating the hell out of me!

The stupid rich kid keeps calling me during work! and even to the point of calling me from somewhere other than his home so that it appears as a diff no. So I've been anyhow rejecting calls all evening. So if i reject your call, just too bad. please call me from your hp so that I can identify that it's you and not some sicko kid. And last night I was totally so irritated when he started arguing about the P & G listing. It's so stupid. I totally stopped replying him anymore. CAN'T HE JUST GROW UP?

And yesterday another guy was like so... over concerned about my well being? And maybe another better word is over naggy. Wow please la... You are not my boyfriend or whatever. It's like maybe it's a syndrome of old people, they tend to nag more... WTH...

Maybe that's the way how guys are... either super jerky, super naggy or just plain stupid. All in all just super irritating!!!

seriously, why can't guys be more like the ever charming 老帅 dept manager in my office?! haha today i was totally charmed by him when he offered me his container of chocs! and the way he got my attention was so damn funny

*gushes over the 老帅*

and seriously today i shd have just chatted with him while choosing the chocs. wahaha at least ask him whether he is singaporean anot... hahaha so loser... 

after nearly one year plus of black hair, should I go change the colour?!

and mich is not helping... because she wants to dye also... wahaha

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