I REALLY NEED TO QUIT SOON!!!

I really find the (work)life which I am forced to lead for the past week totally sickening. On an average work day, I end btw 1030-1130pm. Dinner is like 11pm.

Today was totally depressing. I really think that time is running out and really. I AM SO DAMN OVERLOADED WITH WORK!

I really must quit soon. I really hate this kind of life. Where I have no motivation to do anything because I just keep hitting more obstacles and also MORE WORK!

I hate being match made

And I realized that I really hate the idea of being match made by others.

I really don't understand how anyone can actually ask me what I think about a guy that I have just met for the very first time. Unless he is drop dead gorgeous, damn humorous, or just plain chatty, I really don't think there will be any "I think he's quite *blah blah blah*" Seriously, how can anyone leave any impression if he remains quiet and all. Ok, if a guy is only average looking (which is the case normally), I rather he be damn noisy. So that at least an impression was made. If you look ok and is damn quiet, do you think I will even want to know you?

Anyway, being match made by friends can really get quite annoying. They keep advertising how good that guy is but really all these things are just empty talk to you because you don't even see anything you like about him or anything that interests you about him. I'm not trying to be mean or what everyone likes to say about me (in my face or behind my back) that I am picky, but hey first impressions do count. Unless I really know you so damn long and purely started off as friends, maybe that first impression won't matter so much. But having a guy being pushed at me really makes everything so awkward.

I am not 35 this year, you know.

When I said I wanted to take 1 week's leave cos I'm just too exhausted from the previous 2-3 weeks of ending at 10-11pm from work, I really mean what I say. So my original leave of 1 week becomes 2 days (Thursday & Friday). Then later my boss said that Friday, the big boss will be back, so better be in office just in case he needs any updates. So ok 2 days becomes 1 day.

And now you know what? I become so exhausted & sick (over a persistent runny nose) that I just went to see the doctor and I have got 2 days of MC! So isn't it really "I TOLD YOU SO!"?

As much as I like my bosses, there is a limit to everything. I can totally count the exponential increase in MCs which I have taken ever since this year started. And I really don't remember ever visiting the doctor so many times in just 3 months! I really hate being sick, but hell, at least it gives me chances of getting rest which I usually don't get enough of. 

So, what, if I don't get leave, I must get sick enough to get MCs to force the leave on them? 

And I have to be back tomorrow morning to clear up some stuff before I can go on MC. <= I believe this is only right as there are some tasks which I am managing alone. So yar no one, besides me, knows how to follow up or what the actual status is. 

*wah lao my hands are still shaking from the nebulizer treatment...*