June 24th, 2007

Last night I probably had 1 of the most horrific nightmares which involved a couple of my friends getting murdered (thrown off buildings and getting stabbed). And the way it was put through was like a detective story, whereby every time you suspect someone, that person actually turns out not to be the real murderer because he ends up dead after a while. Eventually, the real murderer (who turns out to be also a friend) did present himself and a bunch of us were actually present at his 'final' murder: he ended up stabbing someone to death. And while he was doing that, I (in my dream) actually realized that I had a knife in my bag, and I was actually contemplating on whether I should just stab him on the back before he stabs the guy to death. But you know what, after thinking a while, I actually did not do anything. Because I was afraid that after I do it, the murderer will turn his back to face me and stab me back 10 times as hard (yes, in my dream he is that frightening and strong). So because of the 'pain' that I imagined, I did not even try to save the poor guy that was being stabbed to death.

Which really got me thinking (in my dream and later after I awoke), when the time comes or calls for it, will I do the right thing? Sounds so 'heroes'...